Oh, that damned Pandora…

It may go without saying…but I’ll say it anyway.

Life is strange.

It’s been rather awhile since I’ve written anything.
Rather longer since I’ve posted anything here.

Things have been up and down, and up and down – but generally speaking on a downward trend. Bad health, bad finances, bad relationships, death, etc.

Then there’s this damn pandemic and quarantine like a Lutefisk/Marmite/Camembert frosting on top of the whole headcheese pie of life. And yet…just as I’m well and truly done with it all…that last bit of evil Pandora kept seeps insidiously across synapses deep within the shriveled grey matter hidden beneath my greying hair.

Maybe I can turn my health around.
Maybe I can be productive.
Maybe I can be happy.
Maybe I can write something!

Ah, there it is dear reader. The delusion. The well-travelled path to despair and disappointment. Like any object caught in the pull of an irresistible force – I am inexorably drawn inward, downward, and onward…

And so, we begin again.

Your commentary is that it is all perspective based.
It all depends on one’s point of view.

All outrage and anger is righteous and justified to the person having/expressing it.
Does anyone have rational hate towards innocent people?
How do you quantify a rational hate vs an irrational hate?

Again, it’s entirely perspective based.

I also disagree with the notion that segregation, enslavement and genocide are the hallmarks of racism. There are plenty of historical examples of those actions merely being effective tools of tyrants large and small – racism not necessary. Any arbitrary metric can be used for application of said tools.

Hate is an emotion. It is neither valid nor invalid.

You have the right to hate whomever you wish as much as the right to love whomever you wish. Hate can be a motivator, it is not however productive as it is an emotion not an action.

Violence is productive, although largely frowned upon as a means of expressing oneself.

Hating a racist/homophobe/misogynist/etc may not lower you to their level – however is there a point? It seems that racists/homophobes/misogynists/etc harbor enough hatred to go around. Note, suggesting that hating them is energy wasting does not mean they shouldn’t be actively resisted, called out and counteracted.

Daily Thoughts 20180617 – Father’s Day

So it’s Father’s Day. My daughter called and wished me a happy day.

I appreciated the sentiment, but as I reflect on why I should have a happy day I was seized by an all too typical melancholy.
I, of course, ruminated on it.

I get irritated that our kids should feel obligated to express their gratitude to those of us who have committed ourselves to their upbringing.
I really don’t need gifts.

It’s great to be appreciated, but as a Father I’d rather you express that appreciation through your actions in the world.
Show me that I didn’t screw you up horribly – a secret fear I think most parents share.

Be successful, and by successful I mean happy.
Your happiness (success as a whole well rounded independent individual) brings me more gratification than any gift you could give me.

Rumination Revival

I’m seriously considering starting to post here again.

It’s been four years since I used this site, but I feel the need to write again – why, yes, it is a severe chronic illness.

Anyhow. I may resurrect some of my old posts just so the place isn’t so empty.

You’ll also note along the top there are links to my free/busy calendar, Facebook, Twitter, and YouTube.


Only short people elligible in cash for clunkers program

For a few weeks I have been considering trading my truck in on a car. Last weekend I nearly took advantage of the governments Car Allowance Rebate System, however I did not have the time to research it.

Earlier this week the brakes on my truck failed, so did the water pump. I lamented the $1800 I had to dig up to pay for the repairs and the cash I could have saved by trading in the truck last weekend.

Today I got serious about getting rid of the truck and put some research into the goverment incentive program. Driving a truck with a 5.9 ltr engine that gets 13mpg should be exactly the sort of vehicle the program is designed to get off the, and it is…BUT…

The program has qualifications and limitations. Not surprising, it is a goverment program. One of them is a height limitation in the new car to be purchased.

Not a limitation on the height of the car, a limitation on the height of the driver. Although it is not explicitly stated, the maximum driver heigt appears to 6’1″ depending on the model car.

I’m kidding, right?
I wish.

The CARS website has a tool for finding eligible vehicles to purchase. In order to qualify, a passenger car must get 22mpg or higher. I didn’t think that was going to be a big issue. I was wrong.

I checked the Ford Taurus, Mazda 6, Hyundai Genesis – all of which get significantly better gas milage than my truck. The problem is they all have too much leg room. I can actually move my foot between the gas and break without slamming my knee into they steering wheel. So they are ineligible for the program.

I must admit to a little omission…the program will allow me to buy a new truck I fit into. Admittedly the new trucks only get 3 or 4 mpg better than my truck, but every little bit counts. Right?

This makes no sense to me. I can get a less fuel efficient truck, but not a more fuel efficient car. All because I’m too tall.

Do I get the unsafe to drive but fuel efficient small car, or the comfortable gas guzzling truck? Hmmm…

So, next subject.
Which trucks do you think are the most comfortable?

The Cost of Freedom

Recently I’ve been seeing a lot of this quote:

“The tree of liberty must be refreshed from time to time with the blood of patriots and tyrants” – Thomas Jefferson.

It has been suggested that this is to be understood as a call to arms against an unjust government. That would be an incorrect interpretation.
The quote is out of context. Try reading the full quote:

“God forbid we should ever be twenty years without such a rebellion.

The people cannot be all, and always, well informed. The part which is wrong will be discontented, in proportion to the importance of the facts they misconceive.

If they remain quiet under such misconceptions, it is lethargy, the forerunner of death to the public liberty. …
And what country can preserve its liberties, if it’s rulers are not warned from time to time, that this people preserve the spirit of resistance? Let them take arms.

The remedy is to set them right as to the facts, pardon and pacify them.

What signify a few lives lost in a century or two?
The tree of liberty must be refreshed from time to time, with the blood of patriots and tyrants.
It is its natural manure.”

– Thomas Jefferson, November 13, 1787, letter to William S. Smith, quoted in Padover’s Jefferson On Democracy, ed., 1939

The emphasis is mine. This is my take on the above quote, and what it means in the context of the changes going on in our country.

It is the solemn and patriotic duty of every American Citizen to loudly protest against any government action they do not understand.
It is the solemn and patriotic duty of every American Leader to engage with equal fervor and EXPLAIN COMPLETELY to the people the action being taken.
It is the solemn and patriotic duty of every American Citizen and American Leader to engage in this debate.

It does not matter that the communication of this information may take time, or expense, or that some people will never understand it.
It does not matter that the U.S. population is 100x greater now than when Jefferson wrote his words in 1787.

The people have a duty to protest, the leaders have a duty to explain.
If the current leaders are mystified at the reason behind the vociferous opposition to Health Care Reform, it is because they have done a PISS POOR JOB OF EXPLAINING IT!!

Barney Frank lashed out at a citizen during a town hall meeting recently because he believed her to be a nutball. I believe her to be confused.
The debate about health care reform is not going to be solved through ad homenim attacks on the proponents or opponents.

The questions remain:
Why do we – the whole country, not just the uninsured – need health care reform?
If health care reform is needed, why is THIS the best way to do it for the whole country?

Can ANYONE point me to a link where these questions are answered succinctly and completely?

Near hits?

So I had the pleasure of a break failure earlier today. Very nearly slammed into the rear of another car at an intersection.

It’s interesting what goes through your mind at moments like that.
Mostly “OH F**K!!”

Anyway, I survived, the sidewalk survived, and the truck is in the shop costing me just under $1800 to fix.

The adrenaline rush got rid of my headache for awhile. It’s back now.
Off to the ankle surgeon!

No tendon tear in ankle so no surgery for now. Looking at something called PRP, involving a plasma injection. IDK

Must do research.


I find I am often derailed in my daily undertakings by the unplanned and unexpected.

Yesterday it was a rock through a sliding glass door. Today it was an unsatisfactory visit to one of the spouse’s physicians & later a fall due to my bad ankle.

That is not to say the days were completely lost. It did take an inordinate amount of energy to move back on task and accomplish even minor tasks.

I believe this errant energy waste is due to trying to force equanimity upon myself rather than accepting, experiencing, and releasing the negative emotion generated by the unexpected event.

There’s always tomorrow.